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Thursday, June 28, 2007 by Mellie

Lately, the only time I can shut my brain off from all the ugly thoughts is when I'm running. So, needless to say, I've been running a lot. The gym is a home away from home, a place I can go to get away and emerge myself in an acceptable sort of pain.

Putting on those headphones, blaring something loud and aggressive (it's been earlier Dropkick Murphys or Busdriver the past week or so) and just losing myself in the beats and pushing my body a little bit further than it's willing to go each time helps drown out everything that seems to be going wrong lately.

Things are good here, don't get me wrong. It seems as though the older I get the more jaded I become. Finding the happiness and light in things is taking a backseat to my intrinsic need for violence and aggression. I try to temper each, to find a balance, but it still eludes me for the time being.

I just haven't learned to live with it yet.


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To tide you over...

Wednesday, June 20, 2007 by Mellie


Courtesy of xkcd.com


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Monday, June 04, 2007 by Mellie

I'm not ignoring you, lovelies. I'm dealing with the imminent death of my dear sweet kitty cat. She's had a terminal illness since birth, so I'm thankful for the 7 years I was able to spend with her past her "life expectancy." It's just that one is never truly prepared and I'm no exception.

I've devastated. I'm trying to pull and hold it together but every time I sit down to write my mind draws a blank.

I'll be back as soon as this dark cloud lifts itself from my head.


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"Two roads diverged in a wood, and I-- I took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference. -- Robert Frost, The Road Not Taken

I'm like that, I'm the untaken road. I walk the path that's filled with jagged rocks, spooky trees and no sunlight - but I come out the other side wiser. It's always worth the price.


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