Sleep eluding me, I slipped out of bed. I tried not to wake Bear, as sleep tends to be difficult for him these days as well.

I just wanted to put this in writing, then I'm going to toss and turn for a few more hours until dawn breaks...

It's been so long since we last spoke that I can hardly remember the conversation. You often do this to me, this disappearing offline for months at a time. I've tried to convince myself that we have no connection, that our momentary friendship was what is was and now you have no need for it. But the truth is, I miss you. I miss the witty banter, the raw discussions about emotionally difficult subjects. I miss the you I may have conjured up in my head; in fact, that seems depressingly likely these days.

Anyway, I just felt like it needed to be put into the world. For better or for worse - at least I feel better.

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Sunday, October 14, 2007.