I can't decide if I feel like this:


Or like this:


I had to euthanize my cat on Friday. While I'm positive I made the right decision, especially taking into account her declining heath and quality of life, that doesn't make it any easier. I still listen for the sound of her tiny paws scratching at the carpet to mark her territory. I miss the way she had absolutely no regard for anyone - she'd sit at the end of the bed precisely where the TV was just so no one would see around her and she'd be able to soak up all our attention.

While there are kittens in the future, a house without animals is no house I would ever want to live in, I'm just way too devastated to even think about the possibility. She was my baby, my only child for 2 years before having my daughter, and I'll miss her more than I could ever express.

Life is ugly and meaningless sometimes. Goodbye, my beautiful friend.


I love you.

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Sunday, July 01, 2007.