To be honest, I haven't been writing much at all lately. I've been thinking. My mind has been a swirling vortex - creating, destroying, piecing together and tearing apart.
Due to a series of events beyond my control, I've been pushed beyond my usual thresholds for pain and suffering (the pain kind, not the type I enjoy) and have probably been a horrendous nightmare for those close to me.
After tomorrow, relief comes. The insanity that is my work schedule begins to right itself and we start the downward bike ride into a new (partly) job and more days off.
But I understand what is important to me. I understand, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that without time to myself and the ability to pamper and pleasure (in the most naive sense of the word, although not always so) both my internal and external bodies I will go out of my mind.
I've also been having a lot of vivid dreams that I don't remember after awaking lately. Strange dreams. Some sexual in nature (I've had sex with both my coworker and a friend who blogs - though on hiatus lately - in the past few days), others more spiritual (I've begun a daily gratitude list to remember to appreciate the little things and find each moment as precious as it deserves to be), but all revolving around the central theme of "good things" in life.
I need more of that and less stress. I need a good session - any volunteers? *grin*
Due to a series of events beyond my control, I've been pushed beyond my usual thresholds for pain and suffering (the pain kind, not the type I enjoy) and have probably been a horrendous nightmare for those close to me.
After tomorrow, relief comes. The insanity that is my work schedule begins to right itself and we start the downward bike ride into a new (partly) job and more days off.
But I understand what is important to me. I understand, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that without time to myself and the ability to pamper and pleasure (in the most naive sense of the word, although not always so) both my internal and external bodies I will go out of my mind.
I've also been having a lot of vivid dreams that I don't remember after awaking lately. Strange dreams. Some sexual in nature (I've had sex with both my coworker and a friend who blogs - though on hiatus lately - in the past few days), others more spiritual (I've begun a daily gratitude list to remember to appreciate the little things and find each moment as precious as it deserves to be), but all revolving around the central theme of "good things" in life.
I need more of that and less stress. I need a good session - any volunteers? *grin*
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Friday, May 18, 2007.
