I seem to be lost in my head a lot more than usual lately. It's almost as if a fog has rolled in, covering all my thoughts in a deep haze and clouding my judgment. I'm second guessing everything, the minor decisions along with the major ones, ripping my hair out in an attempt to feel something. I'm clawing my way upwards like I'm swimming through a closed off canal, poking my head up every few seconds to try to find a brief opening in which to gasp for breath.

Life comes in waves. My life comes in two types - painful and life altering. I barely have time to breathe before they come crashing back onto my shores. Usually I enjoy it that way; I revel in the intensity. This time it just seems, well, tiring. To be on on on all the time, always feeling, always thinking, always so always something... it just wears me out.

I'm taking a few days off from blogging to celebrate Thanksgiving with those closest to me. To all those who celebrate, I wish you all a very non-intense, comforting fat-filled holiday.

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Tuesday, November 21, 2006.