As an atheist and an ex-pagan, I live and breathe the concept of free will. Do I believe in destiny? Well, sort of. I believe that there are plenty of chances and opportunities in the world that are worthy of pursuing, but that you need to pick and choose what path you ultimately take. Every day is filled with new possibilities, but most people overlook them until the right moment comes along for them to claim fate or thank God.

My world is blessed. The negatives float away and I dwell mostly in positives these days. I don't believe in God (it all seems too easy to me), so my world is of my own making. I am my own God. I craft my fate, I spin the web of my destiny and I create the existence that I live in. I don't blame God or some other higher power for the downfalls I face; I simply pick myself up and keep walking down the road. Somedays it's a skinned knee, others it's a black eye... but those times when life is like lying on a bed covered in satin and rose petals drinking a bottle of red wine (had a delicious Malbec this weekend with my darling Eala), well, they're just so much more lovely.

I firmly believe in grasping life by the neck and worrying it until it gives up. I go for what I want, I do what I want, I am everything I ever wanted to be... and nothing is holding me back. My free will is just that, mine. Everyone in my life are people I've chosen, handpicked if you will, because they somehow enhance me. They've taught me things, they make me understand life better, they make me feel... they're all mine too. Even if the relationship only last a day or if it last a year, I still carry a part of them inside me. That's how I learn best.

But don't get me wrong, I have no God complex. I wouldn't even begin to assume I'd know how to run anyone else's life. I'm my own little center of the world, and I like it that way.

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Thursday, July 27, 2006.