Spring has finally arrived in Illinois, bringing with it a flourish of color and temperatures out of the low digits! All seventies this week, folks, which not only cranks my positive attitude up a couple of notches but also means a HUGE reprieve to my enormous gas heating bill! Whoo! My apartment complex has been raping me in an entirely unsatisfactory way for months now.

Unfortunately, spring also means an end to my school related subsidy and tough financial times ahead. I've got like $100 in my back account to last me for the rest of this month, and I honestly have NO idea how I'm going to pay my rent/gas at the beginning of next month. I'll survive, I always do, but it's still a blow to my self esteem. As Bear always reminds me, even though we're not living together currently, we're a team. Teams do things together. Teams work together on everything, and he's been helping out enormously with all things financial. It will just be tons easier when we're married and living together. Two incomes, even if we're both going to school and working a job and a half between us, is much better than one. Plus two school subsidies. Lovely.

But I'm learning to appreciate money. I don't need material possessions to make me happy, I've always known that. Sure, I'm a sucker for a pretty pair of shoes and a nice dress, but that stuff simply isn't necessary to living a good life. (Although, how absolutely FAB are those hand-carved Lucky Lou's and wouldn't I look divine in that swing dress? *wink*). Money truly is the root of all evil. No one is ever happy with what they have - money can't buy happiness/love/family/etc. and love can't bring you money. Of course, money can be earned by faking love, especially of the sexual variety, but I won't go there. *grin* Why fake it, anyway?!

I'm going to go. I've been trying to finish this Laurell Hamilton pulp book for a few days now. I just joined Netflix and I have a giant queue of movies waiting for me to watch. Can't concentrate on books and movies. (By the way, as I'm sure I tend to become a movie reviewer with the more movies I watch, I highly recommend both Walk the Line and The Squid and the Whale. Excellent, both of them, in their own right!). Take care, all.

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Monday, April 10, 2006.