Have you ever had one of those days where everything seems to be going wrong? Where you want to lie on your back in the hole you feel has been dug around you and just look up instead of trying to figure a way to get out of it? Today is just one of those days...

But I'm shaking it off. I'm home now, I found my missing debit card and I'm getting some spring cleaning done (the first day of spring is tomorrow! Finally!) while trying to draw myself out of my head and into the real world. I have a habit of disappearing in there. Everything seems bigger and much more important in my head. I'm a realist, a very calm and rational person these days, so when I'm on the precipice of having an emotional break down I breathe deeply and pull myself back. Getting freaked out about money, weddings, school, work... breaking down doesn't help. Headaches don't make me any more money, the wedding doesn't plan itself if I whine about it, stress can't do my homework and crying doesn't put puppies into casts. That's the truth.

Back to scrubbing my oven. I'll write more tomorrow. :)

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Sunday, March 19, 2006.