Tomorrow, I begin my first raw food fast of the new year. I'm very excited about it; I just got back from the grocery store where I stocked up on apples, bananas, carrots, grapes and other delicious organic fruits and veggies. I get so enthused this time of the year - I always feel like a superwoman afterwards. I feel cleaned out and much healthier, like all the past sins have been washed away and I'm ready to begin anew.

I've been a vegetarian for about half of my life, on and off. I've been re-toying with the idea of adopting a vegan lifestyle, but I plan on doing it slowly because the detox and the cravings are a bitch. There have actually been studies that have shown cheese to be both psychologically and physiologically addictive. Go figure.

With all this outside "stuff" comes a better understanding of my inside workings. I just function better that way, with a clearer mind and less time worrying about what I'm eating and more time to think. I was at the tattoo shop with a friend this weekend and saw their suspension gear in the back room, which really got me thinking. Suspension has always been something I've had a fascination with, but never got a chance to try. Now I'm able to think about it as more of a possibility and less of an abstract thought. For those of you who don't know what I'm talking about...


The reason behind it is much the same as my "reason" for seeking a more submissive lifestyle. Control, passion, mastery of emotion... I seek and find the same thing in my submissive life as I do as an dominant, only from different angles.

On a different note, I'll be changing the template soon. Not sure when, or to what, but it will be changing soonish.

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Monday, February 20, 2006.