It's official. I'm back in therapy.
My first appointment is Friday, just a few hours before I hop in my car and drive 5 hours to visit probably the best friend I've ever known. It promises to be a fairly relaxing weekend - lots of staying in and watching movies, going to parks and old familiar restaurants, staying up late to discuss what's been going on with us in the past few years. I miss her so much and I can hardly believe it's been that long since we've seen each other. She's so many things to me; I can't wait to feel centered again.
And I also can't wait to get back into therapy. I don't feel like I need it to be a functional person, but I feel like at certain times of my life I just need that impartial person there telling me I'm either right or smoking crack. There have been a few internal issues lately that I really need addressed - things that need to be changed for my relationship with Bear to move from unhealthy to healthy. I still tend to be a bit fearful every single day; afraid of being left. I'm much more stable and even keeled than I used to be, but I still need to make more gains in my life for my internal self to be healthy. And I'm happy that I'm getting an opportunity to do that - it feels like being born again.
And, for all your perverts out there, I intend on writing in detail about my weekend with Bear. If he sends me the pictures, hint hint, I'll also post a few *ahem* visual aids.
My first appointment is Friday, just a few hours before I hop in my car and drive 5 hours to visit probably the best friend I've ever known. It promises to be a fairly relaxing weekend - lots of staying in and watching movies, going to parks and old familiar restaurants, staying up late to discuss what's been going on with us in the past few years. I miss her so much and I can hardly believe it's been that long since we've seen each other. She's so many things to me; I can't wait to feel centered again.
And I also can't wait to get back into therapy. I don't feel like I need it to be a functional person, but I feel like at certain times of my life I just need that impartial person there telling me I'm either right or smoking crack. There have been a few internal issues lately that I really need addressed - things that need to be changed for my relationship with Bear to move from unhealthy to healthy. I still tend to be a bit fearful every single day; afraid of being left. I'm much more stable and even keeled than I used to be, but I still need to make more gains in my life for my internal self to be healthy. And I'm happy that I'm getting an opportunity to do that - it feels like being born again.
And, for all your perverts out there, I intend on writing in detail about my weekend with Bear. If he sends me the pictures, hint hint, I'll also post a few *ahem* visual aids.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2005.
