Yes, that's the real wave in my hair. Horribly 1920s, I know. No, I don't do anything to it to make it behave that way. Yes, I attempt to straighten the hell out of it on a daily basis. And yes, I know I should embrace it. Fuck you.

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Today, fall is in the air. It's still hot, humid and stuffy, but I can feel the slightly breezier tinge to the weather. The blue skies foretell autumn... I can almost see the fat orange pumpkins and smell the apple pie now. Summer makes me forget there is a light or a dark side to life - life simply is. I sweat, I curse, I get as tan as an Irish girl possibly can get... I frolic outside and try to enjoy the moment.

Autumn, as much as I love the season and consider it my favorite, brings with it a certain darkness. A deeper understanding of the more torrid forces of life, if you will. It makes me think, regret, debate... it makes me much more introspective than I usually am (which is saying something, especially if you know me well).

I'm going to try to enjoy the rest of my summer. I'm going to stop obsessing about my hair, my weight, my relationship, etc. and finish living life while I still can. Although, I did realize just how important it is to me to get married in the fall. Maybe not this fall, but next fall. All I know is that I want to become his wife in the crisp autumn air. Maybe even with devil horns on. ;)

This entry was posted by Mellie, on Thursday, July 28, 2005.